I stepped out, met new people, came closer, be friends, fell in love, walked on different paths but some moved on and lots stayed back!!! I am still traveling, meeting new people, being friends but lets not talk about love!!! My journey is a combination of friendship, love and trust as there is no betrayal or broken faith!!
SO Here I am.. Sharing it with you all as there is no perfect life, we have to make it..
It was one day or better to say 10 minutes before my 17th birth day. Dad was out of town for his work but Mom and I was at home.
I was waiting for my Mom to go to have bath as she always takes before going in the bed. I was sitting there near the phone which my Mom thought that I must be expecting few 1st wishes from people but the real reason only I knew.
“Why would I actually expect any advance wishes when I wanted someone special to wish me 1st?” I thought even though he was not that special also as I’ve known him only from a week. Well, being a teenage you really don’t think much about pros and cons and priorities get shuffled automatically.
So as soon as my Mom went out I picked up the phone and dialed the no. which I had by heart 1st time in my life. After few rings I heard that sleepy but familiar voice.
“Hello” only I heard and I felt my heart almost in my throat.
“Hi” I could say. “Nothing had ever made me speechless like this than what happens when I talk to him”, I really wondered.
The longing for hearing his voice was really pander but it didn’t even come in my mind that time.
“What made you call me so late in night?” He was still in sleep.
“It’s my birth day today so I wanted you to wish me 1st” and I said it without even caring how dumb I might have sounded. I really forgot all the rehearsal I did to talk to him.
“Oh, Great! Wish you a very happy birth day. God may bless you with everything. Is there anything else too what people normally say?” and he laughed.
“No, thank you so much. We will talk later.” I wanted to put the phone ASAP as my Mom was about to come back anytime.
“What? When?” I heard him saying when I was about to disconnect it.
“Tomorrow may be in evening” I said smiling.
I was smiling even after I kept the phone back. I was too small to understand these feelings kind of things but still the wait for evening and my rehearsal of talking started as soon as I went in my bed, Who cares who else calls to wish now.
Okay!!! I was sitting there in my room near my study table and was looking at the piece of paper that Boy had put in my wallet with his no. on it. I am not going to call him and why should I.
“No, there is no way you are going to call him, Okay?? I tried to convince myself hard.
I was there again, sitting but near the phone table. The boredom overcame my convincing power. I picked up the receiver, dialed the no. but kept back. Again picked up and sat, even forgot the receiver was clutched in my hand
“No, no way. No, this is not happening. God” I sat idle, looking at the phone.
I was bored like hell. No one was home. My younger bro was on vacation at my cousin’s place and Mom-Dad was out of station. I was there with my grand parents and was really bored of playing games or watching TV. It was the long break after high school and before getting into college.
Whatever. Any ways what is really going to happen if even I call? I picked up the receiver and again dialed. It rang on the other side and I kept it back. The ring stopped and so the breathe did.
I stepped back. Oh God, what was happening? I never got so nervous ever before talking to anyone to shiver. I could almost see my hands shivering in the month of May, in those boiling summers.
I reached to fridge for a bottle of water but I almost dropped it hearing the ring of phone.
“It’s him!!! It’s him for sure.” Someone shouted inside me. I gathered all my courage which was left in me and walked up.
“Hello” My sound was almost dead that it wasn’t even audible to me.
“Yes, who’s this?” I heard a sound which was completely breathless. In one instant many thoughts crossed my mind or better to say many reasons crossed my mind. Reasons for loosing your breathe.
“Sorry, I dialed the wrong no.”, I heard myself saying and was about to put the phone back on the receiver, I heard a laugh.
“No, you dialed the wrong no Honey. I knew you would call” He said.
Hell, No. I died 10 times in one moment. Not because he recognized me but because I gave a wrong impression by calling him now.
I had to do something now so I said “obviously, how dared you to put my no. in my wallet?” and realized how dumb I sounded.
And expected answer I got “so that you could call.” And again he laughed.
I smiled and don’t know why his answer didn’t annoy me, even I liked it. I felt delighted.
We talked for like two hours or more, I don’t know.
We talked about things. We made sense even talked nonsense. Talked about each other’s things and life. I felt really happy. Out link just got clicked.
I didn’t know that time, that where it’ll lead me or better to say Us.
Does it really happen that you find someone strange very own and close??
"What the f***, Its so damn hot here!!!" I was really pissed but yeah not obviously because of the heat out there but because of the real badly written exam for which I traveled complete 5 hours to reach the center on time. It was hot as well so my temper reached its highest levels.
Well, normally I am really a very calm person but this whole thing really made me go out of my control. The bus was stopped at the depot and was about to leave. I eagerly looked out of my window as I was waiting for my uncle who had gone to buy something to drink for us.
"Is any one coming here, I mean on the next seat from yours??" I looked up at the face and turned back. "People always find the way to trouble you when you already in a bad mood". I thought.
"Excuse me, I am asking you." It was him again. I had to look at him.
A really fair tall boy, mush have been 6 ft. or so, was standing there hanging a tiny shoulder bag, drenched all in sweat. I pitied him and cursed myself for being so arrogant. He must also be feeling what I was.
"Yes!! My Maternal uncle is coming on this seat." and I turned again at the window.
"Where the hell Uncle has gone leaving me in trouble. God know!!" I was annoyed.
"But ma'am this seat the three seater, I mean three people can sit here. Is anyone else is also coming??" and he lost my all pity.
"No, No one else" I had given up.
He smiled and sat there, adjusting his bag in as much of the place he could. I looked at him once then turned back again to the window.
"Why you seem so angry? See you got few lines on your forehead." He smiled again.
"None of your business" and I hated him. Yes!! He was elder than me but so what? It doesn't give him any rights to talk to me. Weirdo.
It was the summers after my high school and was all set to get in my college. Today was my 1st entrance exam and I did horribly bad plus the heat and now this nonsense guy had to come to worsen that.
"Dude! Shift a bit" it was my Uncle. I turned my gaze from window to him and stared. He was like only 8 years older than me and really friendly so I could stare.
"Oh!! Finally.. What took you so long Mamu?" I bet he could sense the anger in my calm words with smile.
"I am really very sorry but It was all mess. Couldn't find a store only." He meant it.
"Hii" It was Mr. tall and fair.
"Oh!! Here!! Hi.. " and what the heck. My uncle actually smiled at him. F***. I wished they don't get friendly to turn my journey a disaster.
"Where you Guys going??" I really wondered why the hell he is so curios about knowing that where we people are heading to. Why I even thinking about this guy!! God! Rescue me.
And hell!! It turned out as we all were going to the same place. Oh Crap!!
My Uncle asked me about my exam and about the questions in the paper and as like always no one on the earth would want to talk about their exam if it was horrible.
I told him few questions I dint know the answers of. Someone had to speak so that Guy commented answering those questions "Easy the paper was, Man!! How it went??"
And my hate crossed all limits. Now who the hell is he to comment something about my paper. Okay!! He knows more than me so what!! He would try to prove me dumb now.
I remained quite as it was the best option I thought that time and turned back to window. Now the air was really blowing cool and soothing..
Anyway I tried hard sleeping as those guys turned into chatter boxes. Well, better to say complete chatter boxes!!
I slept for good two hours and woke up to find My uncle sleeping and that guy looking at me plus one another Man staring at us both.
I looked at him. Raised my eyebrows which meant "whats going on??" and he smiled and nodded as "Nothing"..
I turned my face again back towards window and smiled. Why? I don't know. I just did. After that many times I turned back to find him looking at me. I felt like I have grown up now as I really had a strange feeling inside. Still I decided to ignore that. Mean while my Uncle woke up.
"You awake? When did you woke up?" He asked.
"Its been a while Mamu." I replied slowly.
Okay!! So we were about to reach our destination. It was dark out. He offered me his no. but din't ask for mine when mu Uncle got down on one station to get something to eat.
"Hell, why would I? I barely know him." I thought and I denied but politely.
I looked around. Almost everyone was sleeping in the bus.
As soon as my uncle came the bus started moving. "Just few minutes more and we'll be home" he said. He sounded tired.
We both looked at each other at the same time. It was awkward. We were about to reach like in 5 minutes. He was getting down on the next stop of ours.
We moved towards gate. I was behind my Uncle but suddenly I felt a pat on my shoulder. I looked back and it was him.
"You forgot something" and handed over me my small wallet which may have slipped out of my pocket while sleeping.
"Thank You" and I was really thankful.
We got down while he was standing at door waving at us.
Later I came to know his name was Deven and was doing engineering from Chennai. Plus I found out his no. in my wallet.
How does it really matter?? I not gonna call him ever. Huh!!!